FRIENDSHIP... which ties us.. to learn about everything in this world....
when this bonding appear,,, we never regret any moment with them,,, cause it is your soul....
read and weep...
THE COLOUR OF FRIENDSHIP
I could feel the air around me was so cold
that it slowly seeped into my
spine.It seem the world around me were shaking vigorously trying to push me
down.My heart suffocated. Where am I? Was this the reality or fantasy? Someone
please wake me up.Wake me up from this nightmare!
“In the name of Allah, the most gracious and merciful……” one by one the
word crossed into my eardrum.
“You’ll be asked with Munkar and
Nakir who is it your god? Therefore answer it as Allah is your god. Then you’ll be asked what
is your religion? Answer it as Islam is your religion….”
I could feel my eyes sprang and
suddenly without my desire it’s burst into tears.I couldn’t control my emotion.
My body shuddered.selena quickly grabbed me and I cried under her shoulder.
“Rekha please calm down. It is
not nice if you do …….you do like this.”Selena tried to calm me down but I knew
that she was trying to control herself. I could feel that her voice trembled as
she tried to clear up her throat.
I couldn’t say anything.Full of
chagrin,torment and terror fill up in my heart after she left us here.
* * * * * * * *
“If
someone is always beside us through thick and thin,who is it to us?If that person is so special and
valuable in this world why do we do like that? – F.R.I.E.N.D- that the correct
answer. For your information, friend play an important role throughout our life
especially in our teenager’s stage nowadays. Friend……..”I
quickly closed that book. I didn’t believe it. For 13 years I breathed in this
world I didn’t have any friends.
I was so afraid to befriend with anybody.
That was my problem. So hard for me to relate with others. I threw my gaze
outside.The sun was glimmering across the surrounding. It was a peaceful and
serene scenery that I had ever felt.I closed my eyes and I could feel the soft breeze touched my face.
It was so calm.
“Stand up class…..Good morning
teacher!”Amar’s voice filled up the entire classroom. All the students
immediately got up from their seats and followed the instruction.
“Good morning class.Please sit
down.!”with her broad smile, Mrs Sayani invited us to sit down.
“Ok…Class. Today we have a new member.
Please come in!” a mysterious looking person was standing behind the door. A
thin girl with a heart shape face and a short bob of a hairstyle slowly paced
into the class. Mrs Sayani grabbed her shoulder and turned her to us in front
of the class.
“Can you introduce yourself?” Mrs
Sayani whispered into her ear. Slowly she nodded an lifted her face to us. The
class went silent for a while, waiting for that mysterious person to talk.
She hesitated but after a moment she
began to talk.
“Mmm…. Hello! My name is Qisthina
Elyana Roslan. Nice to meet you guys. I live at taman rasah jaya. I hope that
you’ll teach me about this school. I
think that’s all from me. Thank you.”I couldn’t deny that her voice was so
cute. Something weird grew in my heart. There was something special about her
that I wanted to know.
“Qisthina you may take your seat beside
Rekha. Rekha ,please raise up your hand so that Qisthina will recognize you.” I
was stunned for a while trying to absorb what had happen. Qisthina would sit
beside me! The person that I wanted to know briefly. My heart began to beat so
fast.
“Rekha…… Rekha …….Can you raise your
hand?” Mrs Sayani yelled towards me. Claustrophobia filled the surrounding. I
quickly turned my head to the sources and after a while I raised my hand. I
could feel that the entire class were staring at me. The new girl slowly paced towards me and she
pulled the chair and sat down.I was so anxious at that time. I was speechless
at that time and that was an exotic thing happen to me.
And that’s how our friendship began.
“Hye,my name is Qisthina. Yah….. I’ve
already introduce myself actually just now. Nice to meet you. By the way,what is your name?” She extended her
hand as an introduction for our friendship. Her smile made everyone of us
tempted because it was such a beautiful smile . I froze in my place for a while.
“Hello……” She paused. She waved her
hand in front of me.
“Are you okay?”she continuously
waved her hand tried to wake me up from
my dream. I stuttered as she did that.
“Ohh…I’m sorry… Yah, Mmmm……my name
is Rekha. Mmmm…..nice…..nice to meet you!” what happen to me? I didn’t know I
was stammering. I tried to swallow back the butterflies in my throat.no one
greeted me like that. It was a weird thing in my life. I quickly grabbed her
hand as an agreement to start this friendship.
“You’re so cute!” she giggled.
Totally, she had a beautiful smile. I could see her golden eyes turned to
scarlet. The only thing that I could say about her was she was almost perfect.
Year by year, month by month, week
by week, day by day, I didn’t realize
that we had already been together for 4 years. Now we were in form 5. I could tell that she had the same behavior
liked me. We are liked soulmate. I could not deny that many people envy us. But
for me , truefriendship is always like that. That is how our life begin. Sometimes there is a
sad moment and sometimes also there is a happy moment. By hook or by crook,we
have to accept it right? AAll the test come from Allah to see whether we are
strong enough to face this life or not.
That’s the definition of life.
Eventhough there were a lot of
obstacles,we faced it together. That made me strong . That also made
me understand how the cycle of life was and knew most of the people. I admitted
that before this I never thought and knew about this until I met her. She
always taught me something new about life. Unfortunately,that day changed
everything.
I were so busy to finish up my
chemistry homework. The chair beside me was still empty and I wonder where
Qisthina was. I gazed at her place tried to search for any memo she left for
me, but failed. She was never like that. Everytime, she went somewhere,she
would tell me first and give a memo for me but this time there was nothing from
her.
“Maybe she has an important task to
do.” I murmured under my breath. Honestly, an uneasy feeling rose in my heart
but I ignored it. I just ignored it and continued with my work. Suddenly, Leah
approached me and greeted me .
“Hye Rekha! What are you doing?” Leah
asked me enthuasiasthically. I could
feel that something weird about her. She never greeted me like that.
“Don’t stare at me like that!” Her
face changed immediately. I didn’t realize that I frowned at her.
“Ohh….I’m sorry! Mmm…..why do you ask
me like that?”I asked her with my pokerface. She flushed ,full of anger.
“Nothing! Someone give you this .” She
handed me a letter and without wasting any time I took it from her. I could see
my name written on it. So tidy and beautiful permanship and I knew who it was actually.
“Thanks Leah!”
“Yah…..Welcome!” She walked away
immediately. I quickly opened the letter like I didn’t have a chance to inhale.
Dear
Rekha,
Please
meet me this evening,3.00 p.m at the Tunku
Kurshiah garden. There is an
urgent thing to discuss.
From,
( QISTHINA)
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An urgent thing? What it is actually? I could
feel that that something had happened. But what it is? I gazed at my watch. 5
minutes to 3 o’clock. Without wasting any time I tidied up all the thing and
packed it into my bagpack. I quickly grabbed my bag and rushed to my
destination. At the same time also my heart was beating so fast. I could feel that my baroreceptor send a message
to the medulla oblongata to reduce my heart beat and controlled my emotion.
I already reached my destination. From a
far,I could see her standing besides the pool waiting for me. I quickly rushed
to her.
“Qisthina!”I called her. I stopped beside
her. She turned her face to me and I could see that her face was so awful. What
had happened to her?
“Qisthina, what had happened to you?” My
voice trembled as I was too worried about her.
“Nothing!Rekha, may I ask you something
?”Now I could see her face flushed. Full of anger.
“Yah, what it is?”I replied with a weird
tone as I needed an explanation in this situation.
She frowned at me. “It is true that you told everybody that I’m a
materialistic person. And that’s also my main agenda to be friend with you.” I
was stunned for a while trying to absorb the statement . Materialistic…….
Agenda…….. It was such an insane thing ever. I never said that.
After a moment, I understood. I sighed.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. After a moment, I opened up my eyes
and looked into her deep blue eyes.
“Qisthina, I think you know that all of this thing only a slanders. This
is a fake accusation,Qisthina! How many times have we faced it? I know that you
know me better than anyone right? Let me recall it back to you. Before I met you, I never had any friends and
you’re the only friend I have. You’re the only one,Qisthina. You’re the only
one!” She turned her face away from me and I could see her eyes sprang. I could
feel my voice was trembling as I tried to control my emotion. A clear water
flowed slowly through my cheek but I quickly wiped it out.
“I’m so disappointed with you, Qisthina.
You never know me at all.”I quickly swung my body and moved away, leaving her
at the back. I crossed the road without looking first. The clear water
continuously flowed through my cheek. I quickly wiped it out. Suddenly, a fast
Lamborghini Alventador with 700hp per hour rushed towards me. I
froze in my place trying to brace myself for what happen next. Only two things occurred in my
mind; life or dead. Suddenly,a warm hand pulled me backwards. I fell onto the
ground. I quickly turned my head to see who had saved me. Unfortunately,it was
too late as the Lamborghini had already hit the person. I could hear the screeching sound from the
accident. I searched for the victim. My mouth flew open as I saw it. I stupor
tried to accept the reality in front of me.
No!NO!.....it’s
just only dream. A horrible nightmare.
NO!NO! …… It is not her.
I quickly rushed towards her.
“Qisthina…..Qisthina…….Oh my god!Can you hear me?”The red blood flowed from every
part of her body. I searched for every sign of life but failed. I cried as loudly as I could and hugged the red
body tightly. But suddenly a miracle happened when the same warm hand touched
my fluffy cheek. I looked at her face and quickly grabbed her hand. I could see
that she strieve so hard to speak to me.
“Rekha,…….I’m
very…….very……sorry…..for……what …..I’ve ……..done ……..done……to…….you……” she
strieved so hard to speak to me. I couldn’t bare to see her like that.
“Qisthina …… sssshhhh……don’t say anything ok? You ….you have to be
strong.”I tried to clear up my throat and controlled my emotion.
“No…. Rekha …I ….. I ……need to……
finish……up …… this ……. problem.” She paused for a moment as she collected all
her strength to speak up.
She continued again. “ Thanks……
Thanks…..for……being……my friends……! I…….. never ……have …….a good……
friend…..like……you in……..this……world…..!”I could see she smile at me eventhough
she looked so fatigue, lost all of her energy. I couldn’t do anything anymore
for her.
“I… know…. that….. you’re……a good…..singer….. right?”
she still streghten her spirit to talk to me.
“Can….. you….. sing….. me…… a……
song?” I just nodded and agreed with her wishes.
“SING…. Our ……favourite……song….k?” I
was so sad when she talk to me like that. I tried to calm down my emotion and feeling.
This was our favourite song and meaningful to us. We always sang this song
together but now I lost my partner to sing this song together. While I sang
that song, I could feel that her hand slowly dropped to the ground. I called
her over and over again but she unconscious. I hugged her tightly and screamed
as loudly as I could for her name. I
prayed to god to give another chance to be with her and to appreciate
her as my friends.
“QISTHINAAAAAAAA…………………”
* * * * * * * *
That’s the history of our
friendship. Until now I still mourned her passing. I couldn’t believe that
she no longer in this world. I couldn’t
accept it. But now I realize that she always with me. To find a true friend is
so hard because it only come once in our life. We have to appreciate every
person in our life as a process to find a true friend.
“DEATH
ENDS A LIFE,BUT NOT A RELATIONSHIP”
Jack Lemmon
I always hold on to this
proverbs.there is nothing that can break our friendship,Qisthina. I hope that
will still remember our song.
What you mean to me
Can't blame you, for thinking
That you never really knew me at all
I tried to, deny you
But nothing ever made me feel so wrong
I thought I was protecting you
From everything that I go through
But I know that we got lost along the way
Here I am, with all my heart
I hope you understand
I know I let you down
But I'm never gonna make
That mistake again
You brought me closer
To who I really am
Come take my hand
I want the world to see
What you mean to me
What you mean to me
Just know that, I'm sorry
I never wanted to make you feel so small
A story is, just beginning
We'll let the truth break down these walls
Oh, yeah, yeah
And every time I think of you
I think of how you pushed me through
And showed me how much better I could be
Here I am, with all my heart
I hope you understand
I know I let you down
But I'm never gonna make
That mistake again
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You brought me closer
To who I really am
Come take my hand
I want the world to see
What you mean to me
Yeah, yeah
You make me feel like I'm myself
Instead of being someone else
I wanna live that everyday
You say what no one else will say
You know exactly how to get to me
You know it's what I need
It's what I need
Yeah
Here I am, with all my heart
I hope you understand
(I hope you understand)
I know I let you down
But I'm never gonna make
That mistake again
You brought me closer
To who I really am
So, come take my hand
I want the world to see
What you mean to me
What you mean to me
*Sterling Knight (starstruck)
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Thanks a lot my friends……
May Allah bless your soul…..
Al-Fatihah……